Steve's Coffeehouse of Doom

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-11-28T15:03:00

2009-11-28T22:03:20Z

Dear God,

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

No Love,

Steve

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-07-24T17:10:00

2009-07-24T23:12:27Z

Apparently my ability to make people comfortable with just talking to me has officially got two people interested in dating me.....One in Minneapolis......and the other in Dayton Ohio.......*sigh* Why can't people closer to me be interested in dating me?

RIP Matthew James Ray Murray

2009-07-04T16:44:33Z

Well he's not really dead. But if feels like it. The Man that I fell in love with has been destroyed by the overwhelming paranoia that he'll be outed by me. I can't describe just how much this hurts even worse. I wish I could just find out what caused him to hate me so much.

Starting this coming week, I go to the gym at least 2 hours a day, 7 days a week. I'm going to fucking make him wish he didn't hate me as much as he does now. I'm going to make him regret ever leaving me.

Dear God

2009-06-20T03:44:34Z

Dear God,

Its me Stephen. The guy you've screwed over a couple times in the love market this past month. You made me first fall for a completely unattainable guy, then you make me fall for an emotionally unattainable guy. I'm beginning to wonder if you hate me or something because this is just some fucked up shit you have going at me. If the sluttiest friend I have can find someone that might love him back then why the fuck can't I? Am I just unlovable?

No Love,

Stephen Smith.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-06-18T07:24:00

2009-06-18T13:26:16Z

So recall my last LJ post about my happy dating time? It ended almost two weeks ago. I'm mostly over the major emotional crap but there is still slight twangs of emotional pain. I hate when people chose to emotionally break you but want to still be friends. And then treat you like crap without reasoning. I hate love and emotions. I sometimes wish I was numb. This city holds almost nothing for me now.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-05-15T06:18:00

2009-05-15T12:21:05Z

Last night is officially the sorta happiest moment of my life....Not only do get confirmation from him that this is not just some "oh we had sex" crush but a full out one....but we decide to take things slowly and are essentially dating. I don't know if I've ever felt this happy before....EVER!!!

Side Note: What is with people being stupid I tell a friend that I didn't want spoilers for last night's Grey's Anatomy cause I didn't see it. What does he do? He posts fucking vague stuff on his facebook and then slowly people start elaborating and giving out details. I. Hate. SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! particularly ones this major

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-04-20T00:49:00

2009-04-20T06:51:57Z

Everything hurts. I feel like vomiting. Someone please kill me.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-04-17T19:59:00

2009-04-18T02:00:52Z

*sigh* Life was going so well and not it could be taking a turn for the worse. Think Cheerful thoughts. You'll find a job. I hate my program for practically forbidding me to have one. But I will find a job. I need to find a job.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-04-16T07:16:00

2009-04-16T13:18:57Z

Had the most amazing night last night. Got to spend the whole night talking with the guy I would like to date. I actually managed to make him smile for the first time all day yesterday which makes me feel special. Even having to write write a test in an hour and a half doesn't bother me. I got to chat with him and it was fun, and then I have a job interview at 1. So I could potentially have employment. Happy Days.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-04-04T21:03:00

2009-04-05T03:05:30Z

Ok I don't know if its because I wasted most of my day at the college waiting for people to give tours to but only one showed up, or the fact that abso-fucking-lutely none of my friends remembered me when they went to a show that I really wanted to go to. I currently hate all my friends. And I hate life. And I just wanna curl up in a corner again and cry myself to sleep. I need something to at least make me feel like it was worth waking up today.

Reasons why my life sucks

2009-03-26T21:55:55Z

Reason #1 - My college program may like to say that they are preparing me for life but in reality it just feels as if they are preparing me to have a mental breakdown.

Reason #2 - My college program seems to enjoy giving us extra crap to buy that isn't even mentioned at the beginning of the year as a need. So I'm bordering on dirt poor.

Reason #3 - Because of my nearly dirt poor status I may not be able to pay off my next month's Rent. I have $180 to my name. And rent is $500. You can do the math to gather the suckiness of it all. And my parents will just say no to helping because they have enough crap even though they don't have kids and are apparently trying to sell their house. They also keep getting new vehicles and crap like that.

Reason #4 - The fucking homework that is due tomorrow won't co-operate and I can't get it done unless I pull an all-nighter tonight.

Reason #5 - I need a job but my program has a "We own you bitches" policy that makes it so I can't get a job. I'm almost to the point of saying Fuck You to my instructors and getting a job.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2009-03-10T11:24:00

2009-03-10T17:26:01Z

I! HATE! TECHNOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking POS Laptops always die on me. Maybe I'm jinxed.

*sigh* Back to using college comps and trying to amuse myself daily without the interwebs

Twilight

2009-01-02T06:50:41Z

Ok went and saw Twilight tonight. and I have to ask myself one thing. WHY?!?!?!?!

Ok my complaints were a couple things. Vampires don't avoid the sun cause they sparkle, they avoid it cause it can kill them. And since when is it necessary to do research on vampires? With what she was given it wouldn't be too hard to deduce that Edward was a Vampire. Seriosly WTF?!?!? I think she should have been a blonde.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-12-21T21:44:00

2008-12-22T04:45:57Z

Dear Flist,

Why do people almost never comment on my posts? I know I post enough. Sure sometimes its two weeks between a post but usually I post pretty frequently so why do I not get comments?

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-12-21T20:59:00

2008-12-22T04:00:16Z

OH. MY. GOD!!!! This is just too funny

QUIZZES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-01T23:52:34Z

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mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-11-18T00:53:00

2008-11-18T07:55:09Z

When I hear people commenting on how much of a good night sleep they had I have to wonder, what is this sleep they speak of?

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-11-14T06:07:00

2008-11-14T13:08:27Z

Note to Self: Painting at College till almost 6 am = HORRID IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-11-05T16:59:00

2008-11-06T00:01:33Z

Dear California,

I'm highly saddened on the "Yes on Proposition 8" that is being broadcast.

No Love,
Me

Dear Arizona and Florida,

YOU SUCK!!!!!!!!

No Love,
Me

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-10-11T19:56:00

2008-10-12T01:57:52Z

Note to self. Still crushing on Straight Boys is not a good thing. Nothing will ever come of it. *sigh* If only the only other gay people I knew about weren't the campy uber-queer walking stereotypes.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-10-01T11:58:00

2008-10-01T18:00:56Z

I find myself slowly developing a crush on the resident stage technician at my college. I actually dreamed about him all night last night. *sigh* I am slowly growing tired of college. Tonight makes up for all the crap this past month and the lack of sleep. PREVIEW NIGHT FOR ROAD!!!!!!!!!! And I get a weekend off. I can't remember when that last happened.

In other news. I was and am the only person in the entire library that feels cold. So not cool. NO LOVE FOR YOU IMMUNE SYSTEM! NO LOVE!!!

R.I.P. Anne Marie Ruddick

2008-09-23T14:23:17Z

I may not have seen you as often as we would have liked. But the times thay we did were always so enjoyable.

I'll miss you, Auntie Anne.

Writer's Block: Your Favorite Series: One Last Go Round

2008-08-22T04:05:26Z

If you could pick any TV show that has been off the air to come back for one more season, which show would you pick and why?

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Dead Like Me. That show was hilarious. And it was the shiznit.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-08-06T10:18:00

2008-08-06T16:32:14Z

I don't know how many of you have had this problem (well probably none of you have had this problem cause I'm the only gay guy that I seem to know on Facebook) but dammit I'm going to bitch about it anyways.

Have you ever met this one person online, they live in a totally different country from you, and you just enjoy talking with them? And then they just up and disappear from your MSN, you can't send them an email because you get a delivery failure notice, and the profile that they had, that you met them on online, has disappeared from the website?

Now I find myself missing this person. I liked talking with them. No not liked. I really really enjoyed talking to him. He mocked my love of Madonna, and he has started to get me to like bands like Seether and Submersed. So I'm waiting for him to sign back in on MSN, just so I can ask him what songs I should download and everything. And he hasn't signed in since the weekend. Yeah he's probably working, I managed to start talking to him on his days off and stuff, but how does one explain emails not getting through, and his profiles disappearing?

I mentioned the fact that I was probably staying up till insane hours of the morning because I wanted to talk to this guy, to a friend, and this friend mentioned the L word. Love. According to him I love this Scottish guy and made an emotional connection with him. I personally don't think its that far. I think its more of an infatuation. I will have to stab my heart out of my chest if I ever think that I'm falling in love with someone that I have yet to meet face to face and is from a country that is on the other side of an ocean.

Fuck you Time Zones, Fuck you Atlantic Ocean, and Fuck Me for being stuck in Canada. And just Fuck you World in General for making my life difficult.

Stupid Bookshelf. Gotta find a way to keep it in one place so I can hammer it but not kill it cause I suck at hammering.

mrhappyjavaman @ 2008-07-26T08:40:00

2008-07-26T14:41:06Z

As of this moment I have come to the conclusion that people are jackasses that say one thing and don't deliver. I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!